JULY 2025

Hmmmm…. I don’t know how to feel about this month. I feel like I’m supposed to feel proud, accomplished and productive, cuz I managed to release SIX youtube videos in one month, and I’ve made significant headway on the Zelda RPG. Almost all of the monster illustrations and UI stuff is done.

However, It’s not as much as I was hoping for. I’ve been able to get at least one drawing done a day while at my day job, but some days are busier than others so sometimes I don’t get any drawings done. As a result, I still feel behind on the development of the Zelda RPG. I wanted to get the game done by the end of August, but at the pace of things moving right now, that’s likely not going to happen.

I’m gonna have to settle with the Zelda RPG being released in the fall instead of August, and that really stings because I saw August as the best possible time to release the game. There’s a drought of meaningful Zelda content this year, so if there was any chance for the game to catch fire within the fandom, it would’ve been now before the new muso game in the fall.

In its place I’m treating the revamped activity of this youtube channel as the summer release for quarter 3. I want to see how far this channel can go on the format and work cycle I’m currently working under. My plan right now is to keep up the momentum and get at least 1 video out a week, for the rest of the remaining year.

So that’s 23 videos… which now that I count it all out feels a bit more daunting than I was expecting, so at a minimum I’m gonna aim for 12. I’m gonna treat this as a practice run: To see if I really have what it takes to create an audience on youtube which I can then use to get attention for all my other projects.

This year has been me just throwing stuff at the wall and seeing what sticks. Games, re-relasing my comic backlog on reddit, and now youtube. If I can’t keep up the upload rate or get burned out before the end of the year, then I’ll know that this isn’t the avenue for me and will go back to what this channel used to be: The occasional dumping ground of random video ideas.

It’s a lot, I know, but for some reason I tend to perform better when under pressure and have multiple things going on at once. But then again maybe I’m already over working myself. Maybe the reason I still feel empty at the end of this month is because I’m still depressed about the state of… everything.

So I’m trying to distract myself by inundating myself with projects. Speaking of distractions, one of the things I’ve been doing to stave off the darkness is getting back into F1 now that the summer break is over.  

I’ve also been watching abuncha F1 shows and movies. Right now I’m going through Netflix’s Senna. So far it’s good but I hope Netflix had the balls to address the fact that the man was a pedo and that is not ok. NO I DON’T CARE IF THEY BROKE UP 3 YEARS LATER, THE MARRIAGE SHOULD HAVE NEVER HAPPENED TO BEGIN WITH!! 

I hate how we have decayed as a society so much that we have to clarify why pedophelia is wrong.

I hate this country. I hate the people in it. I want the aliens to take me home.